Finally Folding

alright alright, mom and everyone else who has been suggesting that i get a blog, im finally doing it. giving in to the pressure, joining the crowd, swimming in the same direction as the rest of the fish. its probably not a bad thing, just something else that ill start and not finish. or something that will distract me from what i should be doing. or not. we'll see.

Right now, i just finished a very interessting team meeting and am now listening to "in over my head" from the fray. thats actually how i feel loads and loads here. but its good. im sure i'll learn loads. i already have. but, back to the team meeting. we've sort of solved some problems, all of us except one. my heart is breaking for him, but i feel that there is really nothing i can do for him but pray. i need to start remembering how much power there is in prayer. you know, the whole "ask and you'll get it" thing, which very few of us seem to understand.

i hate that sense of helplessness. im not really used to it. i guess im just supposed to learn dependance on the one who is so much more of everything than i am. actually, that sense of helplessness is probably more healthy than any sense of capability i may have, as long as i let it be.

thats all for right now. probably more will follow in a few minutes